i will fast tommorow....i will not eat at all...i hope i could be successful...i am planning not to eat until garaduation...maybe i can have awater and a little of fresh carrots...keep up girl! i can do it...

So, my friends telling me that i am thin...but hell! i am not...maybe before...i mean are they blind?!...i definetly look like a pig...i really do hope that i could be like the supermodels...shit!...i just cant get enough with all of this fucking FOOD!.. OMG!...i just fantasize myself being on the catwalk and flying high like a feather...i really lokkup to this hollywood celebrity that definetly turns me on....

1. Audrey Hepburn is definetly so elegant...cant believe!...with 5'10 she had 100 lbs...amazing right..
2. Hilary Duff....what can i say...she's so hot being an anorexic...i dont know why people blame her...that was like a fat ugly-ducking turn into hot swan!....
3. Giselle Budchen...whooho!....this model is definetly oh-so-great!....shit!...why i cant have her body...its just too perfect...
4. Kate Moss...also a model....love her petite built...
5. Nicole Richie...this i say is the one that is mission imposible...wow!...i cant believe she had that body...i definetly love her will- power...
6. mary-kate olsen....i look up to her frame...so much of a thin fab!....
7. Paris Hilton...yeah she's a slut but just keep me interesting with that kind of body she has...

OMG!...i hope i could stop myself from eating...this past few months i stoped fasting and engage into binge eating!...shit!...this is disgusting....somebody control me...i dont know why i always get tempted to eat such crap....my friends forced me and tell me to eat...while all the time,...all around me is FOOD..FOOD..FOODD...how can i be thin if icant even ontol my self...whohoo!...

Summary:

1. breakfast- chips, biscuits 130 cal
2. lunch- 2 plates of rice, egg sardines, noodles 500 cal
3. dinner- 1 cassava cake, 3 fresh lumpia 450cal

so, the total would be................................................................1080 cal.....shit!

i did it again!....itommorow, i will not eat..i will not eat..i will not eat..i will not definetly eat....i will not eat..i will not eat...i waill not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat..i will not eat. i will not eat.i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. i will not eat. iwill not eat. i will not eat.

that's better....